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Changeling (ft. Kevin)
04:36
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I don’t belong here
There’s something wrong here
I wasn’t ever meant to
Be in this position
In place of where
a human should be
Is me,
a different kind of creature
I crave, I crave, I crave,
but for what?
The gaze of Homo sapiens
Is tearing me apart
I crave, I crave, I crave
Even more
I just need you to adore me
I’m so sorry
I am a changeling
I was born wrong
Replaced the expectation with
A creature of the fog
A changeling
Monster of the fae
And I need you to love me or
I’ll die, I’ll die
A changeling
Knew it all along
The hope for me has disappeared
And perished long ago
A changeling
Parasitic lie
And I need you to love me or
I’ll die, I’ll die
Changeling, changeling
I have to, I have to, I have to be
Perfect daughter, perfect son
Swear to god, perfect one
Ah,
How did I even come about
Why do I want to claw my eyes out
Who did I kill to be an effigy of
Ah,
I’m plagued by visions of my mouth
My teeth collecting veins and shrill shouts
I cannot banish what my mind is conjuring
As long as I’m not hated, none
Will ever even know
Just as long as I keep feeding on
The precious human love
And as long as I’m still breathing, my
Salvation is a joke
And the guilt of living petrifies
And makes me want to choke
I am a changeling
I was born wrong
I’m overwhelmed by instincts telling
Me I have to run
A changeling
Sans a real name
And I need you to love me or
I’ll die, I’ll die
A changeling
Knew it all along
The fear I hold inside me is
Embedded in my lungs
A changeling
Parasitic lie
And I need you to love me or
I’ll die, I’ll die
Changeling, changeling
I cannot, I cannot, I cannot be
Perfect daughter, perfect son
Swear to god, perfect one
Say it ain't so
Their eyes are aglow
Shucking my skin
For what's inside me
Say it ain't so
I'm never alone
Killing my voice
Because they found me
I don't belong here
There's something wrong here
Extrapolating from my
Current disposition
I don't belong here
Say there's nothing wrong here
Grant me permission
So I can exist
Ah
I am a changeling
I was born wrong
Spectacular admonishments
Will paralyze my tongue
A changeling
Parasitic lie
And I need you to love me or
I'll die
I am a changeling
I was made wrong
A pure unwilling leech inside
An ocean full of blood
A changeling
Something that replaced
And I need you to love me or
I'll die, I'll die
A changeling
Broken from the start
A substitute akin to an
Imaginary death
A changeling
Corporeal lie
And I need you to love me or
I'll die, I'll die
Die [Changeling, changeling]
I should not, I should not, I should not be
Perfect daughter, perfect son
Swear to god, perfect one
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Who was I ever supposed to be?
There’s nothing so far that I can recall
What happens if I never leave?
I do not know; I do not dare to know
What I’d sow
Who did I think I was going to be?
There’s something there that I just can’t recall
What if I never want to see?
I do not know if I should ever know
How I’ve grown
Something more, there’s something more
Watching from the future’s door
I’m a memory, I’m a memory
I’m a memory of something more than you see
I’m a memory, I’m a memory,
I’m a memory of something loving
I’m a memory, I’m a memory
I’m a memory of something more than you see
I’m a memory, I’m a memory,
I’m a fear of something that is dying
Pointe in the rain
Pointe in the rain
En pointe in the rain
Pointe in the rain
[Ultimately, dancing on the tips of the toes is unnatural, painful, and potentially harmful. Every other activity of the human foot— walking, running, jumping— has been part of its evolutionary journey from arboreal to bipedal locomotion. Dancing en pointe has not.]
Is this the thing I was meant to be?
I ask myself if they saw me before
Could it have all gone differently?
What would I think if I could tell myself?
Would I melt?
Is this the best that could come to be?
Will this be what I am wistful about?
So many “me”s are watching me
Infinite mirrors dancing all around
I might drown
Future self, a friend of mine
What will you see when it’s time?
I’m a memory, I’m a memory
I’m a memory of something more than you see
I’m a memory, I’m a memory,
I’m a memory of something loving
I’m a memory, I’m a memory
I’m a memory of something more than you see
I’m a memory, I’m a memory,
I’m a piece of something that I can’t see
Pointe in the rain
Pointe in the rain
En pointe in the rain
Pointe in the rain
[It has been argued from the nature of sensations and ideas that there is no such thing as a permanent identity.]
I’m a memory, I’m a fallacy
I have no idea who I’m going to be
Paradoxically, I am never me
I have no idea what am
Pointe in the rain
Pointe in the rain
En pointe in the rain
Pointe in the rain
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Gently, now
Come take my hand
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I will find you
Softly, now
Make sure it's closed
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
[My/Your] true love was a killer
[My/Your] true love was a killer
[My/Your] true love was was killer
[My/Your] true love was was killer
I will come find you
Don't run away
Quickly, now
Cast all your doubts aside
For me (for you)
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
I'm in love with a killer
[My/Your] true love is a killer
[My/Your] true love is a killer
[My/Your] true love is a killer
[My/Your] true love is a killer
I'm in love
Falling out of touch
Stricken by a bug
Out of body
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4. |
To Live (ft. SOLARIA)
05:50
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Caught
Without a future
Expecting
An obituary
Wondering
When the day will be
When you
Finally end it all
It's hard to say goodbye to the
Idea of saying goodbye
It's hard to look yourself
In the eye
I reached into the sky
And thought of why I wonder why
What would I even be
If I died
The first lichen on a
Barren land
Has to grow with nothing to
Sustain it
After waiting for so long to be
Saved by something
I became something
More
I choose to live
Even if hurts me
I choose to live
Even if I crawl
I choose to live
Despite the worms inside me
Telling me to decay
I guess I want to stay
Who I once was
Thought I'd never be
It's funny 'cause
It was always easy
I never thought that
I would make it this far
In my hands
I held a ticking clock
It's hard to stay away from the
Idea of quickened escape
It's hard to hear yourself
In your mind
I looked outside the glass
And found pink petals in the grass
What would I even see
If I died
The void that had slowly
Consumed my heart
Told me lies, and I had to
Reclaim it
After being so cemented in
Molten plastic
I yearned for something
More
I choose to live
Even if hurts me
I choose to live
Even if I crawl
I choose to live
Despite the worms inside me
Telling me to decay
I guess I want to
Stay
Even in this circus
I choose to live
Even if I rot
I choose to live
Despite the dandelions
Threatening to eat my name
I guess I want to stay
Even if I drag myself
Kicking and screaming
The sympathy
Is agony
The malady is self sustained
By echoed
Sentiment
Born deep within an idol
Of a god
Who turns it into guilt
It's hard to break the cycle of
Believing you're poisonous
It's tough to think that you
Could be loved
I searched within the sounds
Once overwhelmed by petty doubts
What could I even make
If I died
The magic that's dwelling
In the mundane
Is a choice, and I have
To make it
After realizing that I was
Born to laugh, I
Saw what I was
Searching for
I choose to live
Even if hurts me
I choose to live
Even if I crawl
I choose to live
Despite the worms inside me
Telling me to decay
I guess I want to
Stay
Even in this circus
I choose to live
Even if I rot
I choose to live
Despite the dandelions
Threatening to eat my name
I guess I want to stay
Even if I drag myself
Kicking and screaming
Even if I drag myself
Kicking and screaming
I guess I want to stay
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You’re so pretty, you’re so little
You’re so precious, you
So much more aware than anybody
Ever knew
It’s no matter, there’s no matter
Be the bigger man
What could all these other people
Ever understand?
The poison that I take, my horrible mistake
Was tolerating this for nobody’s sake
I’m gonna break you down
And hurt you the way you hurt me too
I’m gonna break you down
And watch you fall apart
I’m gonna break you down
And ruin your way of thinking, too
I’m gonna break you down
And watch you get destroyed, falling apart
Watching, learning, there’s no telling
What I’m gonna do
Boundless fury, free from jury
Aiming down at you
Watch my wrath and see my power
Fear me like no else
I am so much more than you thought
Do you regret yourself?
The concept that I couldn’t fathom to exist
Is fucking my brain like an incubus
(It feels good)
I’m gonna break you down
And fool you the way you fooled me, too
I’m gonna break you down
And watch you bite the dust
I’m gonna break you down
And shatter your sense of being, too
I’m gonna break you down
And watch you beg your god, falling apart
[Break]
I'm gonna break you down
And hurt you the way you hurt me too
I'm gonna break you down
And watch you fall apart
I'm gonna break you down
And ruin your way of thinking, too
I’m gonna break you down
And watch you get destroyed, falling apart
I'm gonna break you down
And shatter your fucking spirit, too
I'm gonna break you down
And watch you lose your mind
I'm gonna break you down
And crush you until you're choking, too
I'm gonna break you down
And watch you fall apart
And watch you get destroyed
And watch you bite the dust
And watch you beg your god, falling apart
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6. |
Is That Me?
03:17
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10. |
To Live (Instrumental)
05:48
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Cephalorachnid
Just some little guy doing their best.
I write a variety of musical styles, and no album will necessarily stick to one genre. I think it's a little more fun that way.
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